Day 285: Labor Day
Well at 3 a.m. I woke up to go pee. The moment I stood up fluid started coming. I immediatly knew my water was breaking, but for a second on my way to the bathroom that maybe I was just peeing myself. What a silly though as water is gushing down my legs as I am rushing to get on the toilet.
I cleaned myself up (this involved going thew 2 pairs of underwear, 3 incontenice pads (which i bough for this senario) and 2 pairs of PJ’s) and called to let the midwife know.
We then contacted our babysitter and packed up our daughter to go drop her off. Poor thing was a bit confused as to what was going on. However she did well and kind of just went with it. I hope she is behaving well.
It is now 7:23 and contractions have started, but they are a bit all over the place. They are coming anywhere from every 5 to 10 minutes. But at least they are coming! I have to go to the hospital at 8 to have the baby checked and to make sure I am progressing, then I can come home again.
Last time my contractions in the beginning were not as painful as these are and I had no bloody show, which I do have now, so I believe that I am making progress this time. I just wish it would hurry up a bit.
Well I should go start getting ready to go get checked (come one lots of cm’s!).
I will update again later if I can or if I am in the mood to.
Pregnant Me
Update #1
Back from the hospital. Having some progress! I had some heavy contractions during the 30 mins of monitoring and a bunch of smaller ones. I am 2 cm dialated. Not a whole lot, but this is a huge improvement over my last birth.
However, if things don’t progress further then I have to go in at the 12 hour mark (3pm) and be induced. That being said, it seem that the heavy contractions are getting closer together now (I just had to stop typing to breath through one).
With my last labor, once I hit 2cm everything went pretty quickly, so here is hoping things start moving.
Update #2
It is now 12:31 pm. Contractions still have not got closer together, but they are a tad bit longer and are pretty painful. Right now they are between every 6 to 10 minutes. I am a little frustrated at this point. I was really hoping to be moving along a bit faster. I really, really don’t want to go to the hospital. I am also missing my daughter. It is so strange to not have her with me.
Update #3
baby boy, born at home at 4:18pm. 8lbs. Name and birth story to come.
Day 284
Symptoms: crampy, some discomfort.
Cravings: peanutbutter m&m’s and rootbeer (neither of which I can get..)
Weight: 76kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: Okay
Well baby did not show his face during the time he could not come. I guess that is a good thing, since I really do want a home birth. ALthough I am not sure that is going to be in option in the end.
I go in for tests on Friday to see how the baby is doing and discuss induction. The earliest I could induce is Monday. I am back and forth on this decision. I really want a home birth, and even more so, a natural birth. I am also scared of an induction. It was not the most pleasant thing I have been through. All that being said… I spend almost everyday here at home with my daughter feeling guilty. I don’t feel she is getting the attention she should right now. Someone should be here with her who can play with her and doesn’t struggle to pick her up. As much as I want to, I just can’t sit on the floor or chase her around the apartment and have fun with her. I also have a really hard time letting her crawl all over me, as my tummy is in the way and it just hurts to have her kicked, jump on it.. etc. I just don’t know if I can go another week of it. As each day passes I feel more and more emotionally hurt by these facts and they make me question our decision to have another child so soon. I know a lot of these feelings are amped up by hormones, but even knowing that, it doesn’t make it any easier.
I feel like I am choosing between my children right now, and I don’t like that at all. I know that it is only one more week and chances are, my daughter is probably too young to really care, but still. I also know that just because I give birth doesn’t mean I will automatically be able to do the things I want to do with her. Those first couple of weeks it will pretty much be me and the baby getting a hang of breastfeeding. However, my husband will be home and be able to give our daughter the time she needs. Someone will be able to do it.
So I think I have decided that if they will let me, I will induce on Monday (or even earlier if they offer). I would love to try to let nature take its course, and I would love a home birth. However, I think I need to also consider my emotional well being right now and the needs of my daughter into consideration as well.
I feel like either decision I make it the selfish one….. ugh.
Pregnant Me
(p.s. Yes, you may have noticed… I have gained 2lbs in the past week!)
Day 282
Symptoms: I’m sore.
Cravings: peanutbutter m&m’s and rootbeer (neither of which I can get..)
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: I just woke up from a nap, so I’m not sure.
Well the weekend has almost gone and still no baby. Yay for being overdue… not. Unfortunately if I want to have a home birth I need baby to stay put for the next 24 hours. Our water is being shut off for matinence tomorrow morning at 8 until 4 in the afternoon. This doesn’t seem like an ideal situation, so if I should go into labor after midnight tonight we will be heading to the hospital.
Today we went for a good long walk hoping to stimulate something. Didn’t work, but I am now very very sore!
I also had to call and make an appointment at the hospital to go in for tests to see how the baby is doing. This will happen on Friday. They will do whatever it is that they do, and if the baby looks fine in there then I go back in 3 days later and repeat. My midwife told me that they don’t let you go past 41 +3 so this doesn’t make too much sense to me. Perhaps if everything looks good they let you go longer. I’m not sure. I have an appointment with her on Thursday so we can discuss this in more detail then I guess.
Even though I want to have this baby on my own (although I am really beginning to believe that just won’t happen) it would also be nice to know an end date as well. I am over being pregnant and would really like some sort of end in sight.
Pregnant Me
Day 280
Symptoms: none
Cravings: peanutbutter m&m’s and rootbeer (neither of which I can get..)
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: fine
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: Congratulations you have reached your due date!
Well today is my due date and no signs that baby J will be arriving.
I really have nothing else to say about it….
Pregnant Me
Day 278
Symptoms: none
Cravings: none
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: fine
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: Baby’s total length (head to toe) is approximately 21.5 inches.
Well no repeat of what happened with my last labor. No water breaking at 5:30am in the morning.
There is a lack of anything going on actually. The first part of my day has been pretty easy going. My daughter is happily playing in her crib as she always does before she naps and I get a little me time now.
I should nap also, and I think I am tired enough to nap, but I don’t think I will. Surfing the web seems like a much more interesting idea.
Pregnant Me
Day 277
Symptoms: some pressure
Cravings: none
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: neutral
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: Non stress tests are usually done if baby goes past its due date.
I am beginning to wonder if this is going to go down like my daughters birth. If so, that would mean I could expect my water to break tomorrow morning, having a lazy day at home, then a boring few hours in the hospital, then craziness for a couple of hours. Every pregnancy is different right? What are the chances of all that happening twice? Probably very slim, but it is still on my mind.
I am pretty tired today. My daughter did not sleep well last night and was up early, then decided that a 15 minute nap in the morning was all she needed. Her mood has been okay considering, but she wasn’t really into eating lunch and the slightest negative tone in my voice either brings her to tears or pretty darn close. Poor thing. I always feel horrible when she cries for something she didn’t do wrong. As I was changing her stinky diaper, I said that she was stinky. She cried. She accidently dropped her milk on the floor. She cried. Which in turn almost made me cry because I felt bad for her. She went down for her afternoon nap really easily and I am hoping that it is a long one. We both could use it.
Pregnant Me
Day 276 : Happy Valentine’s Day
Symptoms: nothing really, besides being big and uncomfy!
Cravings: none
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: neutral
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: Only a little more than 10% of women’s water breaks before the onset of labor.
Happy Valentine’s Day. I was kind of hoping for a valentines baby, especially since today is my due date if I go based off my last period. I don’t think it’s happening though. There is a hug lack of any sort of labor activity today. Overall, I feel fine, a tad bit tired, but fine. I don’t even feel overly pregnant.
I can’t believe there is only 4 days until my due date. I never, ever thought I would get to it! Okay, well that is not entirely true. I know I said a couple of times that I had a hunch that this baby was not gonna come out on his own, but still, I’m not sure I fully believed that statement.
I have come to terms (at least for the moment) that I am not going into labor. I actually can not picture myself going into labor at all this week. I have reached a point where I can picture myself going into labor period and I can’t picture having another baby in my arms within these next two weeks. I have reached a point were it all just seems like a fleeting thought that isn’t actually true. I don’t know, perhaps I have just waiting so long my mind has just given up on the idea for the meantime.
I am also very undecided about names. We don’t plan to name him until we see him, but I have this fear that I won’t be able to name him within a day, which I feel is important. With my daughter, the name we choose wasn’t on our list, but it clicked right away for me. However my husband was stubborn and wouldn’t 100% name her until I got upset about it, even though he said the name felt right.
I don’t know, but right now I can only take one day at a time. Here’s hoping I get slammed in the face with reality soon!
Pregnant Me
Day 273
Symptoms: tired
Cravings: cake
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: meh…
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: Diarrhea, nausea and indigestion are all possible signs of early labor.
So today marks 39 weeks. You would think I would be excited. I’m not. Yes it means less time pregnant, but on the other hand it also means I am getting closer to my due date, which means closer to go over and the chances of having an induction get higher.
I do not want to have an induction. Period. The system here has changed a bit and they now no longer allow you to go past 41 weeks and 3 days (the midwives themselves are not happy about these changes, but there is not much they can do about it). I hope he decides to come on his own.
My husband has decided that the baby will come on valentine’s day. This was our original due date based on my last period. I would prefer he show up sometime this weekend, but Monday would be fine too.
After my very down day I have bounced back a bit the last two. Yesterday I felt great most of the day. Today I am going back and forth between feeling fine and feeling exhausted. My husband is off early on Fridays and decided to take our daughter out for a bit to give me some alone time. I think once I am done here I will go hope in the shower then perhaps have a nap. They won’t be out long, but if I am napping when he gets home he will just leave me to nap (although I will hear them the moment they get home…).
Pregnant Me
Day 271
Symptoms: feeling sick
Cravings: ice cream
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: tired, a bit emotional
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: A list of positive affirmations may be helpful during labor.
Still no baby. I slept really well last night but I feel horrible today. Feeling like I am getting the flu or something. I know some say that that can be a sign of labor coming, but I think I am just tired.
I find myself wishing it was the end of the week so my husband is home to help during the day. My daughers naps times are my favorite times of the day and I feel guilty about that. I should be enjoying all the time I have with her, but I am just so tired, big and awkard playing with her is difficult. For the most part she is okay with being independent and doing her own thing, but I just feel like I am not doing enough with her. I just feel like a horrible mom.
Pregnant Me
Day 269
Symptoms: some contractions
Cravings: ice cream
Weight: 75kg
Food Aversions: none
Mood: Miserable
Daily Pregnancy Calendar Says: If baby’s head is not downward, you may have a cesarean birth.
I am in a horrible mood today. I am frustrated and miserable.
I had false labor for about 5 hours last night. I felt like I was having the worst menstrual cramps, horrible back pain and waves of intensity, but I could not pinpoint the beginning of a contraction or the end of one. Sounds like the real deal doesn’t it.
At first I didn’t want to get excited so I just tried to relax and see if it would go away. After 4 hours I decided to put my babysitter on alert, but I was still cautious about getting too excited. I decided to have a hot shower to see if that would do anything. It took the intensity down a bit, but on it went. After hitting the 5 hours mark it all slowed down considerable. I could feel the start of a contraction and the end, but the back pain was mostly gone and the pain level went down. I fell asleep and by morning everything was gone.
I think I am more disappointed than anything else. I really thought it was the real deal. How could I not after a few hours of pain. I never did call the midwife because although I was in pain, an hour or so after it started it kind of reached a high and didn’t get worse, just consistent.
All I can say is that I hope it was at least productive…
Pregnant Me
Pregnant Me, 280 Days 